The Guide to Salvation: A Vision in Which Humble People are the Gate-Keepers to the Reign of Goodness in the Cosmos

Seeking the margins of societal bounds pushes us to the limits of definition and understanding of humanity.

The people seen out of the corner of our eye, caught in glimpses of stark reality, coated in sacred dust, groaning in the pain we inflict by our averted gaze, in fact stand at the center of that which we have long ago lost sight. They stand in the center of their humanity, their deep and intrinsic connection to earth, to space, to stars, to Life and Being. They hold this knowing in the simple acts of feeding their children, tilling the earth, lacking ambition.

We who sit on plastic yoga balls and pay our personal trainers to force-feed us vegan meal plans are the ones who claw tooth and nail toward the truth that gently enfolds the humble people we do not dare to see. We are starving for the abundance they hold, and sinfully, we gorge ourselves on the excess borne of their material deprivation.

Yet even in our folly, we cannot help but be immersed in the truth of Oneness. The difference is that their surrender has been their salvation – they have spread their arms wide and floated on the gently lapping waters of wonder in Something Greater. In the struggle of the First World – absent-mindedness, incessant business, and arrhythmic rationalizations – we have asphyxiated. We drown in our own womb-waters because we refuse to breathe in the direction of dependence. We insist we can feed only through our brain, not through our gut roped to the Mother Globe and our iron-infused heart tied to Parent Galaxy.

Gaunt and grim, we turn to look at those impoverished people who stand on the edge, and in horror at our own absurdity, finally see that they stand at the threshold of a horizon from which we have been running. Just beyond them, in the direction of their sight, is a new paradigm of Personhood, formed of fine energetic connections that lace a gentle path. This weft of light leads to Universal Integration, but first, to a realized vision of Justice for inhabitants of Earth.

How do we return to right relationship? How can we make the quantum leap necessary to traverse the chasm we have created between us and our brothers and sisters of every species who never let go of the truth?

The truth, it seems, never let go of us.

It whispers to us,

Simply remember the song your body hums to the rhythm of the cosmic hymn.

Resist the pull to the top that propels you away from true presence.

Break open your heart; empty out all you thought you had to be in order to reclaim who you always have been.

First, look. See as if you have never seen before, which you have not, as each moment is now, and now is the only time what you see has been, and now is when you are looking. In looking as if you have never seen before, notice the familiarity. Hold the grace of the mystery that, somehow, you have always known what you see.

Second, learn to speak like that. When judgment creeps into your language, let silence reorient you to the being in-itself, which is the object, the person, the place, the idea you behold. Learn all things and people as a reflection of you, and remember that you are wholly good. Listen – your story is told through the mouths of others.

Third, align your action with your speech. Feel the path you carve with every gesture and choice. Allow slowness to keep you in your body. Witness each deed as a creative effort toward a reality you decide.

Fourth, unclench your tight fist clinging to comfort. The soft pillows of wealth stifle your lungs and insulate you from a freshness your being craves. When you begin to feel cold and heat again, your chills and sweat will disturb you. Soon, though, the ease of knowing you are actually alive will create contentment in all seasons. You will feel that you are neither warm nor cold, but that you are given dimension by your experience of warmth and coolness. In a miraculous moment, you will grasp in a flash the beauty of that release.

Fifth, go where you will hurt. Pain precedes all growth and yields new dimensions. Penetrate the ever-emanating orb of suffering by carrying it with others. Keep moving through it, touching it, allowing its sting to singe your bones until, as a distant pinpoint, you see with your companions a spark of hope, which will grow to a joy that tenderly envelops the pain. The energy of joining-together is what heals all brokenness. Reassemble the pieces by adhering to fellowship.

Finally, arise. Realize you have always been in the right place, because, like all places, it is the center. Meet the eyes of your brothers and sisters whose struggles were caused by people who, like you, needed lessons to regain their humanness. Watch as they lock eyes with yours, smile, and extend a hand. Reach out and meet your own extended arm.

In the folded fabric of spacetime, you once saw a hierarchy and division…now, you feel the tug of strands all around. By this shape with no sides or angles, all form is perfectly represented.

There is nowhere to get to, no place at which to arrive. There is only here and now, and the perfect alignment of oneself with the wholeness of this.

Divinity shimmers in every facet. The face of God comes to light as Creation.

One touches the vibration of All That Is by taking the pulse of one's own heartbeat.

Peace becomes the only end.

tentative poems

I am comfortably a lover of poetry, not a poet. These brief lines come from a tentative place in me that longs to expand.


Morning Mountains

The mountains hold an emptiness, and the morning.
I look. I cannot capture it.
I surrender and
fall into it.
I was already
there.

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Gift

Present moment brims -
wonder splays, blossoms adorn
laden tree branches,

unfold toward sunlight,
incense mystery I
gratefully receive.

-*-

Lexington Road, April 29th

man twirls ninja bow-staff in secret
dances under deep green canopy's quiet
on expansive seminary grounds

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Tilt

What is it?
Filtered light through membrane
walls traced with thin veins.
Familiar...foreign.
Spinning   spinning   spinning
Large eyes mirror mine -
Butterfly wings -
Deep water -
spin-light
breath-spin,
tilt into space-time
I cannot yet penetrate
the edge of knowing.

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Soft

Mess of lavender
Perfumes the clear morning light
That wakens my heart.

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My Forgotten Child, Dzhokhar (As I Grieve the Boston Marathon Bombing)

Sun-soaking in breezes like sips of fresh water,

hot light warms my hair and casts a halo glow on my crown,

dazzles my shaded eyes searching for light

through the winking gaps of vines grasping

the sky, which grasps nothing, but holds

everything underneath its blanket of wonder,

shelters the sinners and saints and sovereigns all the same,

brightly beams at me, and you, and the young boy in Boston

who bombed the marathon runners, mothers and fathers

and babies all trying to make sense of a race to nowhere,

a sprint that loops us 'round to the same ruminations:

Why pain? Why struggle?

Why hate, harm? What need for hope?

Why blood and blasted limbs, why a bastard child

of humanity to turn us, again, against each other?

Because we fear to see that his scars

are ours, on our own bodies and souls -

ours, because we all have assaulted one another with lack of love.

The threat of walking into a crowd of strangers

is less than the death that comes of never being known.

The threat to humankind that comes of crucifying a Chechen

in the name of public safety and justice

is greater than the risk of calling him our son,

cradling him in care, gently stroking his hair in sunlight,

holding him with branch arms that bring his

brightness to blossom, allow us to glimpse

his glory under gory wounds, and offer him up

into the expansive sky-love

that will rain down refreshment of forgiveness,

will remind us that no one is simply a spectator,

that "Victim" names each and every forgotten child.

.

erythros

So much blood has spilled...so much deep

red warm thick blood has seeped through

skin and delicate veins and has coalesced

in pools on floors   in forests   on hands -

touched tongues with taste of cold metal.

Iron forged in bellies of distant stars, dynamic

cosmic ovens, swims in the hemoglobin

of each human being, membrane body.

erythros: red.
kytos: hollow.

Only less than 200 years ago did we peer

closely enough to see the individual 

biconcave discs with no nucleus, a hollow

center, and scarlet miasma searing through.

Each second, 2.4 million new blood cells

are birthed in you. 60 million died
in the second world war and in Rwanda, 800,000

in only 100 days. No one knows how

many were killed in the Crusades, or

for countless unimaginable reasons.

20-30 trillion corpuscles navigate the thin

channels that traverse organs and tissue in

the field of your body. They carry the exhale

of trees to each part; they speed so that

each minute the cells cover the meandering

path three times. Tiny membrane-bodies that

coagulate into miniature rivers and streams ripple

and teem with your Life, are journeying those

halls of your mysteriously confined figure.

We forget that we bleed the same color, that

erythros-red is what we all are on the inside,

and that each cell is hollow at the center,

save for that mesmerizing sphere of light

that glows on every level, in each smaller

piece that comes together to form something

greater.

Madonna

I cradle her softly in my memory of Friday morning, as she stood bravely, silently, then spoke with a steady, even tone into the still room held captive. She was thirteen. Dark, dark, dark: her hair, her eyes, the teeming ripples of thought under her smooth, opaque surface as she brushed curls from her eyelashes and prepared to respond as the Truth that found her. Although she trembled, she gracefully gave in to the pull of power greater than herself and, in the surrender, spoke from a place of wide-eyed awareness, of keen and inconsolable connection to everything.

"She held these things and pondered them in her heart," the ancient book says. She received, and felt, and broke, and cried as her children hung on beams that ripped the fragile human fabric. She saw, she heard, she touched the scars and suffering, and let it all rush into the core of complacency's comfort. She was told she was to embody the divine nature of matter, and she, in her willing wonder, said "yes." Mary, who we call Mother of God, was probably about thirteen years old. 

This young woman who stood before me hears gunshots, sees drug deals, feels unkind words like pinches on the soul, knows the schisms between what is actual, what is real and what is true. She declares her life "indescribable," and in hearing in her witness the confusing clash of industry, violence, apathy and despair, you know it is so. The loss of what is precious pours from her being; each syllable screams that we have forgotten who we are meant to be. She looks at it all. She has made of herself a sacred vessel amid mundane terror, a voice of resistance to the wrong that met her with many faces of our world.

My soul glorifies the Divine,
my spirit rejoices in God, my Saviour.
God looks on the lowliness of his servant;
henceforth, all ages will call me blessed.
The Almighty works marvels for me.
Holy is God's name!
There is mercy from age to age
on those who fear God,
God puts forth his arm in strength,
scattering the proud-hearted;
casts the mighty from their thrones,
raises the lowly, fills the starving with good things,
sends the rich away empty.
God protects...his servant,
remembering his mercy,
the mercy promised to Sarah and Abraham 
and their descendents forever.

Her dark was rich and dimensional, glittering with sparks of something greater. In her wounded words glimmered the light of restoration. She closed by saying, "Someday, someone will care," and the way she carried those words to the ringing ears of those gathered suggested nothing less than that she was the one she had been waiting for, and still didn't know it. She stood vulnerably, emptied of the pain she held gingerly with fingers that stroked the wailing woe of isolation. She released the carelessness she could not control and chose to adorn herself in the strength of what she could: her willingness to receive. In holding it all, she was holding the world together for all of us. The stark, simple beauty of her love-act struck each of our hearts.

Eternity

Wedding anniversary gift to my husband - November 27th, 2012

ETERNITY

Someday, long after you and I have died, our bodies will burst

into a supernova so vast it envelops everything

we have ever touched, and reaches beyond

the farthest ring of our solar system.

At times, when I look in your eyes, I feel the brilliant boom

of the beginning,

The Beginning, the wonder of all

that came before and after the first moment

of Time, the spontaneous

unfolding of Space, the Light

of new stars.

Maybe I feel this because you and I, our bodies, were once

in the same arm of a galaxy, extending outward, touching dark.

Perhaps we were nestled in an intimate part

of the dust whorl that condensed to become Earth.

We could have swam in the same primordial sea before the first creature

with eyes had Seen.

There is a chance we were bark of the same tree

                that a deer nibbled

                                that a long-ago hunter arrowed, who

                                                became the ancestor of all living people.

Is that why I feel I am in the perfect place

when I lay my head on your heart?

Is that why my hand fits yours

like, somehow, our molecules all fit

just the right way to give life?

Is that why I see you as the teaching

of all I have known in my short life,

the path I am to walk, the reminder of who

I am at the root?

Is that why, to you, I say yes

forever?

September 6th, 2012

There seems to hang a film of light in the early morning air of this September 6th, a thin veil of particles suspended in the breezeless humidity. As if emanated by the tall, old trees I pass that wait to loose their autumn splendor once again, the soft gold halo enfolds a fresh layer of reality, the realm of what is to be: the coming day, the coming season, the just-beyond. The trees hold the tension, do not haste to what they must know, in some sense that supercedes my limits of understanding, is coming - the time of brilliant color, then release. Rather, they breathe from where they are to where they are to where they are, ever-present and ever-faithful (apart from any self-righteous faith to which we humans grasp) and ever-becoming, without hindsight or forethought.

As my feet step one in front of the other, walking under a canopy of oaks and maples, passing the dogwoods and crab-apple trees, their stillnes brings me to pause. On the precipice of my myopic vision, I see in the distance - or dream I see, in the muggy heat - a gentle shimmering, as if an unfelt breeze has disturbed the portal to a reality imminently close, but in a direction fatally foreign to me. The grainy apparition is clouded by the sheer glow of this pink day; I blink, and it is still there, but no clearer. I glance around as if the wet pavement or rows of houses could offer new perspective, to no avail. The trees are soundless. Though their unseen roots are gulping water from last night's rain and the pores of their delicate leaves are pouring pure oxygen into my lungs - although they exist undeniably in my physical presence - they also, I feel in the tingling quiet, live in a place to which I have rarely, if ever, been.

Oh, to have that deep knowledge of a life lived in an upward direction, then immobile, yet omnipresent; to regard this moment, as I stand in their wake, as parallel to the time when families in the 1940's were moving into these new homes, or when surrounded by cool forest in all directions before Europeans came, or when first breaking through the hard shell of a seed to the rich, damp earth; to live in this world and another, and to perhaps know no distinction between them; oh, to radiate light, and a constant invitation to pay attention to the possible hanging thickly in the still air of this and every morning. I continue walking my linear path, thirsty for the gift of submission to now, now, now.

Later, the pink morning yields to blue; the branches sway gently overhead as I sit on my porch. The sunlight is clear and unfiltered, distinct and bright. A breeze caresses my cheek and moves my hair. The trees seem to speak, This is our world, too. 

- Written 9/6/2012